Bing, Bang, Boom. Three years down the road and we're still fucked

You break up, you do the friends with benefits thing for a while, and then you realize that whatever you had is broken and cannot be fixed. You call it quits, and you grow apart. After a lot of sleepless nights, and a few angry phone conversations it's end of story, right? Wrong.

When you build a relationship you build a life together, especially when it's long term. Along with this life you build a lot of subconscious reactions and interactions with each other, that, no matter how far down the road, are going to be used whenever you see one another.

Like a relationship, a post-relationship friendship consists of having to work together to find a middle ground where both people can stand confidently and individually. It makes a lot of sense on paper, but it's really tough, and most of the time best left untended since one party is probably not into it... or even aware of these notions.

Bummer... but there's no reason to bum ourselves out about it. The past is the gone. It really sucks that we no longer have anything to say to someone that we once shared many intimate moments with. But really, if we have nothing to say to them, what's the point?

I heart Metal, I heart Wine

Well, it's been a while. It's amazing what being happy with your life does to you. It's kind of crazy what happens when you change who you are, what you do, your lifestyle, ambitions, and pretty much everything under the sun.

Now as I sit on the morning of the apocalypse, I finally have found the ambition to write as myself again. I have been working to take a direction as sort of an indirective 'guiding light' in the path to a greater existence. For lack of a better phrase, I have run into a dead end. I have found I have only traveled so far, and I have much farther to go before I can say more.

I have retreated to living in music, working, and figuring out my next move. It's interesting taking such big leaps, and then taking small steps. I guess that's what life is about, huh?

It's not often, I can be unethical in a social network setting anymore. It not often I can say I enjoy a few strong drinks and being a dumb kid. I can honestly say I miss the fuck out of it. Social and Ethical constraints are a bitch, and finding the balance is really hard.

I like to have a drink, I like to listen to music, and I like to experience life through the eyes of many venues. It's hard to be in the mental health field in your 20's and still do everything you want to do. There's a good reason why I'm where I'm at now, not going head-first into my career, not being incredibly serious. It's because when we're our age, you're not supposed to. We're young and trying to figure it out.